So, if anyone is wondering why I don't update that often, the answer is quite simple. I'm boring. Nothing particularly interesting happens in my life on a day to day basis. I go to work, I come home, I play video games, I sleep. Sometimes Jenn and I go to a movie or play minecraft together. Most of the time I don't do enough in any given month to fill two paragraphs.


It makes it really hard to talk to my dad or other relatives. Every time they call the conversation quickly ends in dead air because they say "how are things going?" and I reply with "same ol same ol". And then dead air.


I should also mention that I'm terrible at making conversation. Besides not having anything to say, I'm particularly unskilled at faking that I have an interest in what the other person is saying. Jenn is about the only person I ever talk to that I'm genuinely interested in what she's saying (mainly cause I love her and whatnot). I think that's why I have so few friends. It takes a lot of mental energy and willpower to maintain a friendship, and to be quite honest, I'm usually tapped out just maintaining my relationship.


I guess that makes me antisocial. Doesn't really bother me. Thankfully Jenn and I share that personality quirk.


It's funny. We were talking about a wedding the other day. We've decided to get married at the courthouse. Initially, our reasoning was the expense of a wedding, and wanting to save the money for having a kid soon. But after talking, we both realized the core of our desire not to have a real wedding is entirely an antisocial one. We just genuinely do not want to deal with that many people. We don't want to be the center of attention, we don't want to have to entertain all our friends and relatives, we don't want to navigate what will be a conversational minefield with that many people. No no no.


It was an interesting revelation that shed new light on our collective personality. It's a good thing, really. We realized that the other half of our relationship is really all the human contact we want/need in any given day. Neither of us have that many close friends, and it's likely because we both feel fulfilled in our relationship. We're not just boyfriend and girlfriend, we're best friends, so we don't really feel the need to look for friendship outside of the relationship.


Anyway, it'd be way too hard to find anyone as cynical and judgmental as we are. Most other people just end up annoying us in one way or another.

You sound like my boyfriend. >.> I'm not as antisocial as your girlfriend though, so I guess our relationship differs there.
» randomjunk on 2013-04-26 06:54:12

hahaha, this is weird to say, but this is a pretty cute post.
» Zanzibar on 2013-04-28 06:26:11

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